happy friday!

ok! day 30 something and the sun has been shining all day. the boys have been in rare form screaming and jumping off everything, thankfully most of the day was spent outside. all errands were run and we even had time to meet up with friends at the local reptile house!

i dont think i mentioned...or maybe i did...that i took our little schnauzer to be neutered. poor guy has had some swelling at the incision site so a trip to the vet was in order. all is well; just a little bit of fluid collecting inside, but nothing to be worried about. trying to get the boys bathed and in bed. no naps today so fingers crossed ill have an easy time getting them to go to sleep. about ready for bed myself...being a mommy and a daddy is exhausting.

i love you my darling and wherever you may be know that my thoughts are always with you.

day....

ok ok i am a horrible awful blogger. seems life has just been getting in the way leaving me with no time or even desire to update my life. the past few weeks have seen me participate in the crazy horse volksmarch, lose a friend, get sick and pass the 2 month deployment mark. all good in there own way.

i can say with confidence my direction is ever forward, one day at a time. been looking into a south dakota state park pass, enabling me to visit all the parks in the state and get some good hikes in before it starts getting cold. winter comes fast and quick here.

so i guess if we want to get back on track with numbering days lets go with day...30? sounds about right to me. tomorrow is day 31...woot!

Day 5

today was filled with mundane house tasks. our direction was a circle around the base and home again. donations dropped off at the base thrift store and groceries purchased and put away. nothing left to do but play the day away. inside, outside. upstairs, downstairs. cookies have been put on the to-do list tomorrow. sugar and chocolate chips need to be bought, but our aprons are at the ready on the kitchen counter. thinking some sweet treats filled with love will be winging their way across the ocean and to you my darling.

"love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction." -antoine de sant-exupery

Day 4

direction-up, up, and up! the sun was shining again. the boys and i spent the majority of the day enjoying the fruits of the earth. another visit to the park followed by painting. there are dinosaur pictures on every surface of the kitchen. we picked our favorite 2 and mailed them to family. sadly i missed you when you were online today. i am blogging and praying i catch you tomorrow. dont hide from me my love! now that the house is quiet im attempting to do something with this unruly nest on my head called hair. bye bye split ends...heres hoping it doesnt end in disaster.

3rd night

are you finding what you were looking for...out here with me? i hope so.
steve zissou

the distance takes us far from each other physically but in my heart there is no distance between us. does the night sky look different to me or to you? a thousand stars show me we are both headed in the same direction...towards each other and towards love. we have this space to become better than we ever were. now is a time thick with growth, now is a time to find ourselves.

finding direction

my first blog generated a lot of positive energy. woke up to a bright sun shining on me. the boys and i adventured outside to play in the dandilions and even took a walk to the park...well i walked, they drove their gator tractor. i couldnt have prayed for a better day, or maybe i did. finding my direction felt easier today and my shoulders felt lighter. its amazing how much the weather affects my moods.

still feeling like a ship lost at sea but i think i am seeing the lighthouse on the horizon guiding me safely to shore. whats on that shore is still a mystery but im putting my trust in the universe and going with the flow.

at least, thanks to small miracles, im not lying on my face like this poor doll baby the boys and i discovered today.

first time for everything

never thought i would blog. laughed at people who blogged. yet here i am starting my own blog for no other reason then to get these thoughts out of my head and floating around in the universe. maybe i want this blog to be an action similar to prayer. i put it out there, i express a need and that need can now be answered by a higher power.

my husband and best friend is on a mission for the united states air force. a mission that has taken him to lands across the ocean, taken him far from my arms. that i continue every day is a miracle in its self. i see him in the eyes, hairlines and birthmarks of our children as i kiss them each morning. i find myself in a sort of bubble, time feels differently. what day is today? couldnt tell you. i wake, play, feed, clean, and change diapers in an endless cycle. will time speed up and bring my lover home tomorrow? i pray and i blog.